STFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Man, I'm feeling so fkn depressed rite now. Dunt even kno why, but I feel realli sick, kinda fever-ish in fact...I feel like breaking down, yet I wanna open up. But noone is here to listen...i just wanna die here, rite this moment....

Listening to: Evanescence - My Immortal

...feeling so faint...

I need someone, anyone,
To tell me it's okay,
That I should not give up hope,
That I can still live on.
But the sadness has caught up to me,
I'm feeling how I used to feel once again,
Life just feels like a bitch,
So someone, I beg u,
To kill me now,
Take away my pain,
And let me live in peace.

I dun like my life. I fkn HATE myself so much. There is so much rage within me that people dun understand. My life, as I realised, is completely meaningless... dun even why I was even born in the first place, even when my parents dun spoil me like my sisters, how I am the only one who gets treated unfairly in my family [and got punished for voicing that thought] That's just bullshit! And my sis has been up to stuff...God knows wat...and she's been spending her cash like burning paper. And my parents just keep giving her more....[wat the fk?!] Then there's the school rumouras about her being slutty, from a friend of mine..*shrugs* I can't do anything more than watch who she brings home...i dunt even kno wat she does at school...mebbe i'm just a realli terrible sister :(

I dunt mind putting this out in public, coz i realli wanna be heard, just I kno i'm gonna get people talking shit about me...but seriously, is there any other way to get my opinions heard?