A story by me [noname]...

Where am i?
My body is numb, i try to move but my body just won't budge.
I try to scream, but no sound comes out.
I can feel something cold & heavy metal-like object in my hand.
I look down..
First thing I see is a revolver.
How did it end up in my hands?
Then I cast my eyes away from the gun, and onto a body - a dead one.
I drop the gun in shock.
Who is this girl?
She looks so familiar, yet I dunt recall who she is.
Her body lay by my feet on the cold granite, like a lifeless doll.
Her damp hair sprawled everywhere.
As my eyes dart from her face to her body, I panic.
A deep red stain was slowly soaking onto her dress.
She's been shot! my mind alarmed me.
But by who? Was it me? Would I ever do such a hideous thing?
I gasp as I take a second look at her face.
The memories came flooding in...
This girl, dead, at my feet, was Jess.
I crouch beside her body, and stare at her.
Her eyes were a light glassy brown color, but hollow inside.
Eye dews trickled down my face.
She finally got her wish, I said to myself.
She wanted to leave her sad lonely life where noone loved her.
She told me this when I spoke to her today.
She also made me hold her gun and point it at her.
I dun remember wat happened next,
But only sounds of a loud gunshot, and then I blacked out.
When i opened my eyes, this was all I saw.
Nothing would've prepared me for what I was to encounter.
It soon dawned on me...
I killed her! I helped her kill herself!
These words screamed in my head.
I clasp my ears with both my hands and try to make it go away.
But then a thought struck my mind...
I didn't take away her life, but gave her a new one.
One that promised everlasting felicity, where she would be loved by all.
She had loved many people dearly, but they never did the same for her.
Her soul slowly fading as each day passed.
And I gave her freedom and ultimate happiness.
That would've been her greatest wish before she died.
I closed her eyes with a sweep of my hand.
A tiny voice which I can barely make out, says to me "Jess is no more"...
"She doesn't exist anymore"..
"She's dead".
I leaned forward, and drew my face close to hers.
"Goodbye Jess" I whispered in her ear.
Then suddenly, a sudden elated feeling about myself rushed into me.
I felt good.
I smiled, stood up and turned to walk away.
And out of the croner of my eye,
I could've sworn I saw a tiny smile on her face too.

**This is only a fragment of my imagination. Tho this would realistically be seen from a first person point of view describing my thoughts & feelings. Any materials from this abstarct may not be copied or altered in any way under Copyright Law. I just wish everyone who reads this to know that Jess does love u all, eventhough this love have never been returned. But a word of note, Jess does NOT exist in ur lives anymore. You had to chance to kno her, but all of u threw that chance away. She just wants to thank all of u for knowing her and befriending her. She says she is sad to leave all of u, but good things always come to an end later in life. And this is it for her.**

Last quote to name is: "All alone, in a room full of people..." - feels like ur by urself even when u supposedly have a great network of friends. But where do ur friends disappear to when ur in need? U kno u always feel the only one out of place...people say they care, but how much do they realli care? I realise now that wat im living is all a lie. A fabricated emotional attachment with no real strings. A tall tale well made by an exceptionally good storyteller.

Life has lost all its meanings...