Just a brief moment...
I think I haven't been on mIRC for about...3 days now, but who's counting. I can honestly say i am NOT addicted to it. If I've done it once, I could always do it again. Staying off mIRC is not hard, u just need the willpower. So rest assured all u AG-Mircer peeps out there who may (at this moment!) be reading my blog. I am still alive and in Melbourne. Just think I need a little time off the chats that once in awhile annoy the ass off me. [Especially those people who get you to do stuff for them (argh!)...u know i always do it, coz i'm so oblidged to...i've never said "no" :( ]
After receiving the results for my last essay, it realli made me think about my life, and how I have been living it. I've been so slack coz I've been emotionally disturbed, causing me to fall back on my studies [there's been lots on my mind about my family, friends, financial situation, my parents' expectations, my lack of concentration in the lectures, even the number of days I have to go to uni!] Many things have been acorss my mind, of which is impossible to balance out, unless u are willing to forego something. My life isn't perfect, I know that...but these problems, tthey will never go away until the day I die. So why should I keep living? I have nothing to live for. I got noone to love, no knowledge to gain, no pursuits to chase, to goals to achieve. All I'm here for one reason: to study, to graduate, to find a job, to earn millions, to grow old, and to die. I see no family in my future, so don't tell me bout husband and kids. And what good is money when u know everything is so materialistic, but what u can't get in the stores u can't buy with money? Or am I living just to experience the evolution of mankind within the decades I'm alive?
My essay has been a real eye opener. Made me realise how distracted I can get, and how much it can distort my management of time. The time we live in, for each second u lose, u can never gain it back again. And for each day that passes, wouldn't u wish u could gain another so that u could do what u enjoyed even longer? All I wish is for time to move 100x as fast, so I can live up to the day that I grow old, and know I haven't wasted all these years just waiting for death to arrive.
Currently Listening to: Namie Amuro - Shine More
After receiving the results for my last essay, it realli made me think about my life, and how I have been living it. I've been so slack coz I've been emotionally disturbed, causing me to fall back on my studies [there's been lots on my mind about my family, friends, financial situation, my parents' expectations, my lack of concentration in the lectures, even the number of days I have to go to uni!] Many things have been acorss my mind, of which is impossible to balance out, unless u are willing to forego something. My life isn't perfect, I know that...but these problems, tthey will never go away until the day I die. So why should I keep living? I have nothing to live for. I got noone to love, no knowledge to gain, no pursuits to chase, to goals to achieve. All I'm here for one reason: to study, to graduate, to find a job, to earn millions, to grow old, and to die. I see no family in my future, so don't tell me bout husband and kids. And what good is money when u know everything is so materialistic, but what u can't get in the stores u can't buy with money? Or am I living just to experience the evolution of mankind within the decades I'm alive?
My essay has been a real eye opener. Made me realise how distracted I can get, and how much it can distort my management of time. The time we live in, for each second u lose, u can never gain it back again. And for each day that passes, wouldn't u wish u could gain another so that u could do what u enjoyed even longer? All I wish is for time to move 100x as fast, so I can live up to the day that I grow old, and know I haven't wasted all these years just waiting for death to arrive.
Currently Listening to: Namie Amuro - Shine More
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