I HATE BEING FAT!!!!!!

man, it pisses me offso much whenever I feel fat. Seriously, you guys can't change my mind about it because I know I can feel my body change and NO, I am not delusional. Although as much as I would like to try to believe what I see in the mirror is not really fat, in my eyes, looking at my 'flabby bits' physically will confirm that the mirror does not lie. This gets me really depressed =( . I know most people deny the fact in front of me, but does it ever occur to them that they can't see it coz I hide it when I go out o_O? Or maybe you guys are just blinded by my flabs x_X. It doesn't help either when u feel flabs jiggle/wobble and it weighs u down like a sack of jelly permanently attached to ur body...or...or...ur top rides up and ur pants ride down when u sit down, exposing ur tubs of lard front & back, and believe me...that is very unflattering! And when I feel fat, I lose my mood which leads to me dressing like shit when I go out [no color co-ord, no vibrant style, no unique sense of ANYTHING!] I think i'll blame the weather as well...I hate the cold. [Blardi lecture room has the air-conditioning on. Weird aussies...]

One other thing that's shitting me right now is the fact that i'm broke...thanks to the fkn MET inspectors for sucking over $200 from my allowance, leaving me $0 to spend for the rest of the month. And I feel weird that people are offering to shout me for everything, but realli guys, could u just let me isolate myself from everyone until I'm done brooding over little shitty problems like this, and when i'm once again happy about myself?

I shall start doing an intensive workout starting today. Will keep anybody who's interested updated.