Finally 21...>_>

Okay, maybe I was a bit too harsh about my mum before. I take it back now. Coz it was u kno, just a spur of the moment anger. >_< My mum agitates me a lot sometimes coz she doesn't let me explain and makes a big deal about something small. Anyway...being 21 is a nightmare. I don't think I'd ever wanna grow up, seriously. It's too scary. Just the other day I was sitting down thinking how my life will progress, and I didn't have a clue. I dont even know if wat im doing is wat i realli wanna do. Will I get a job? I dont seem to be succeeding in getting a job anywhere. It's quite discouraging, realli. I want to make my parents proud, but often feel that I don't have the abilities to. It's just a terrifying thought to have to get a job, play the right cards, earn enough to support myself, make someone outta myself. It's just so difficult. Many other people would probably have aspirations to become someone or something even since they were little, but me, I change my mind a lot. I don't know what my talents are to make my life all worthwhile. I wish there was just some sort of talent test that I cuopld take that tells me what talents I have. >_>